Whether we are awake or asleep, we are constantly engaged in a dance with gravity. Depending on our experiences, this dance might be distracted by some collapsing or fighting. Even when seemingly at rest there are areas of my body that fight, brace or collapse while other parts yield with fluidity and gracefully move with gravity.
I am interested in more integrity, an overall dance without the interfering noise of opposing forces. So I developed this practice: In the liminal time-space between sleeping and waking, I feel the weight of my body. I feel the support of the ground. I feel where the ground and my body meet. I also feel where my body is pulled away from the ground.
This morning I started to differentiate between the sensation of the weight of my body as a whole and the weight of my individual organs, bones and connective tissue. I could feel how, although my back felt connected to the ground, my heart and its surrounding connective tissues pulled to the right. I took extra care, with a deeper and softer breath and intentional directive thinking, and added light pressure from my hands to allow my heart to relax into the support. Then I noticed that the area of my gallbladder as well as my right illium (pelvis bone) needed some help to trust the support. As my body was unwinding from the pull to the right and was able to yield into gravity's support I remembered the forces that drove my body in this direction in the first place. That was a car accident so many years ago. My body remembered, even after years of exercises, deep tissue massages and other manual work. Now, in this slow and safe context it has the opportunity to forget.
I am fascinated and in awe of how deeply our cells remember and how deeply the support and sense of safety needs to be in order for our cells to un-remember and recalibrate to neutral. After 20 minutes and much careful breath-support and guidance I felt at ease and fluid. Getting up from the floor aligned for this day's dance.
By recalibrating our cells we recalibrate our relationship to gravity and free our thinking - and vice versa.